This may be an odd thing to say on a blog, but I'm going to say it anyway: I am not very social. I am not what you would call a "people person". I can feel inadequate in social situations. I can be rather awkward when dealing with others. Heck, I can be downright unbearable at times! Sometimes, I wonder if this has hurt me, hindered me, gotten in the way of some of my dreams and endeavours. It probably has. However, I am beginning to accept the asocial side of my nature. It's a part of who I am.
When it comes to making meaningful connections, I'm sure my asocial nature hurts me. I have a habit of severing connections when annoyed. I burn just as many bridges as I build. Sometimes, I destroy spans even if letting them stand intact would be more beneficial to my aspirations and ambitions. I'm funny that way.
There are times I wish I was more social, more of a "people person". There are times I wish I got along better with others. There are times I wish I was better at making meaningful connections and keeping those connections intact. However, I know I've been like this for a very long time. I know my preschool and grade school teachers made comments about how I didn't always get along well with the other children. That was thirty-five to forty years ago now. Some things never change.
Oh well, I do the best I can.I struggle along, faltering at times, but doing what I can to make a few connections and build a few bridges. I'm always hoping to stumble across a niche where my asocial nature isn't such a handicap. Am I there yet? I don't know. Perhaps. Perhaps not. If not, at least I'm closer to being there than I've ever been before.